I really have no idea what has been happening with me lately. My emotions are extremely out of wack & I'm having a lot of trouble supressing how I feel to people. Maybe it's because I know that a few weeks from now, I will be in a place that I belong & I am supported. A part of me hates, and I mean HATES, being dependant on others. I cannot stand relying on my family and friends to take care of me. My independance kicks in come graduation day. As soon as I have a job, I will be able to be dependant on myself, which is what I've been looking for since I was younger. Why should I be suppressed any longer? I am done. I am sick of being pushed around and pushed away.
Since the whole "Hey, your grades suck, you can't get them up? Fine, do props" thing happened, my emotions have been even worse. My depression has been at an all time high and my anger against EVERYONE & everything has made everything worse. Why now? Aren't these next few weeks supposed to be the best few weeks ever? What about the senior perks? Seems like I won't be getting any.
Wonderful.
T minus 29 days.
Monday, April 12, 2010
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